Captain Erica ← Creative. Magic Supertramp.

The Cost of Healing

It’s Friday and I just left Urgent Care for dehydration. I unboxed this month’s refill of essential supplements and ordered some medication from Russia. The whole ordeal is exhausting and expensive in every way.

A Histamine Intolerance Primer for Carnivores

What is histamine intolerance, and how does it affect your health when following the Carnivore diet?

The Madness of Mercury

In some ways being sick has been saving me.
It’s forcing me to figure out what’s really important in my life.
Just as long as I can remember long enough to remember this is my life.

“Hey Ambulance Girl!”

I’ve lived in my converted ambulance for almost 4 years now. I don’t really know where the time went, until I think long and hard and it begins to make…

Healing Isn’t Pretty

I spent 2 hours sitting on the floor of my house, rocking and weaving, crying and sobbing and howling. I washed my face with what felt like gallons of tears. I felt the physical and emotional pains of those old memories as if they were new.

And having to face the reality that I’m also responsible for the trauma I received as an adult.

Best Day of My Life

Until the other day, when I mentioned, “the best day of my life,” and my brain turned back on to remind me of that old mantra that served me so well.

Healing (sometimes) Sucks.

One of my neighbors came to me in tears asking if I’d call an ambulance to take them to the hospital, they’d tried to kill themselves and still wanted to commit suicide.

The Body Is a Distraction

I just finished this drawing last night, been working on it for a few weeks. It’s multi-dimensional. If you get caught up in the woman you might miss the whole…

A Year For Vulnerability

If each year of my life has a theme, 2024 might be my year for vulnerability.

🐸 Licking The Frog

After sharing some of my DMT experiences, a friend of mine suggested I try Kambo. “Great for cleansing the body,” as he put it. My phone started showing me all the advertisements for plant medicine ceremonies and one of them was local to me; just 10 minutes away. A Kambo + Bufo experience.

I’m Angry.

I remember as a child, getting so angry at people I’d clench and grind my teeth until they ached. I would sit in silence imagining I was grinding that person’s bones into dust with my teeth. Always in silence.

🌱 Trauma Healing with DMT: Session 2

This entry is part 1 of 8 in the series Trauma Healing: Session 2

This was a bit of a last-minute session; I hadn’t planned on doing it in advance. In fact, I was going to go roller skating.

But the whole day had been stressful and tiring in an odd sort of way. I laid down and napped for a few hours. When I woke up I felt this urgency that I needed to do a session; and I’m glad I did.